Well that one was a f^cking Doozy Mc Doozerson
How about you?
Aloha Beautiful Bitcoiner, Burner, Believer, Badass Family! 🌈
First of all I want to say thank you, I LOVE you and am so proud of ALL of us.
I want you each to know that I see you and all the work you are doing to make yourselves and the world a WAY better place. 🙏
Last year was a smack down get up smack down- halfway get up and smack down again year.
Buckle up for another one.
(But NOW you have gone through some fortification so you will be prepared)
HEALING ❤️🩹
I want to acknowledge all the healing work that is taking place in many forms for all of us.
I know this is not easy sometimes and it takes a lot of courage to do inner work, healing and personal growth. It is a lifelong adventure with ups and downs like surfing Jaws on the North Shore of Maui but worth it to heal, love and grow into who God (Spirit, Universe, Source, etc) wants us to be - which are happy, healthy, loving humans.
I pray that this work heals generational trauma so we, our children and grandchildren etc are free from the past and able to live more healthy, self-regulated, and optimal lives.
I want to celebrate some wins, insights, breakthroughs and more if it’s ok with you.
(I know I can talk a lot but this is good stuff ;-)
COMMITMENT + INSIGHTS 💡
I am grateful for all of my teachers, mentors, guides, coaches, groups, therapists, family, friends, apps, books, videos, podcasts, dogs, flowers, oceans, Mother Nature and GOD (aka Universe, Great Spirit, Source, Creator, Jesus, etc) for loving me and teaching me different perspectives now and over the past 35 years and tools to be the best version of myself- a lifelong work in progress.
💜I have been on this growth path for 35 years since Ram Dass’s purple “Remember: Be Here Now” book caught my eye at a library in Tempe Arizona.
But after shit hit the fan with mega midlife meltdown/divorce/near death experience 8 years ago- I spent way over $100k and 5000 hours at LEAST 25% of my time in the past 8 years (12 hours x 52 weeks x 8 years = 90+ minutes a day of meditation, yoga, journaling, praying, chanting, breathwork etc + TONS of therapy (DBT/CBT/EMDR/Breathwork/Somatic Therapy/hypno/family), podcasts, books, 30 day rehab, 2 month covid reset in Sayulita, retreats, business coaching, life coaching, workshops, (Ibogaine/DMT/psilocybin/MDMA psychedelic therapy) of my life energy on healing and transformation I have come to the following conclusions 💜:
We are all doing our BEST with what we have
My family, loved ones, and 99.69% of humans are REALLY good and loving people
I am a really good LOVING person too
I have remnants of old patterns that still need love, compassion and self-reprogramming and am working on it daily (replacing FEAR with FAITH is the biggest one- and each day I get way better because of my improved self-talk and conversations with God thanks to Florence Scovel Shinn and Neville Goddard)
All humans have old patterns that still need love, compassion, and self-reprogramming.
The only way to see my blind spots is when loved ones tell me how I impact them (so thank you and please keep sharing so I can adjust my behavior yet still stay in alignment with my truth)
My behaviors are awesome, flawed, and everywhere in between as a Mom, co-parent, lover, entrepreneur, podcaster, coach, mentor, friend, and human
My behaviors have been LOVING and caring for those I LOVE including myself
My behaviors have hurt those I love including myself
I have forgiven myself for hurting others and hurting myself
I have forgiven those who hurt me because freedom from resentment = PEACE
Realization that I need to listen more, get more curious and ask more questions and not act out of fear or judgement about religion, politics, etc.
Realization that I was living out of integrity and alignment with my 11x LOVE Code and it caused massive blockages in my love, faith, family, energy, business and forward motion. Once I made changes and let go of a misaligned relationship and started to surrender control to God instead of me, after the initial sadness and loss (rejection is God’s redirection) , I knew it was for the highest good and everything started feeling better and falling into place.
Realizing that once I let go of trying to control the situation with a loved one and let go of fear, uncertainty, and perceived rejection then turned it ALL over to God, my whole nervous system relaxed into Divine LOVE and faith.
Realized after listening to the podcast that my co-parent sent (the gaming addiction psychologist), I agree with him and talk therapy makes things worse for me personally if it is not weighted way more heavily on spiritual coaching and skill building. Hypno - self and/or with practitioner, for building and envisioning future power as well as specific past healing is good- not just talking- it is more like complaining and makes my energy feel yucky.
Realized after listening to “The Courage to Be Disliked” that all problems are relational problems (relationship to self, others, God, and situations) and that we have the power to shift instantly if we choose to. ( Sometimes I would get stuck in the past pain loops and replay trauma loops in my mind - forgetting I can change the channel and stay changed)
I look at people’s hearts and intentions and realize most every human is loving
Connection is better than disconnection
Repair after rupture is ultra important to me yet I have to be patient sometimes
It is never about taking sides - it is always about LOVE.
My words are my wands (or weapons) and I must practice top-notch positive self-talk all day everyday(Florence Shinn - Neville Goddard)
The stories we tell ourselves are true in our mind’s eye, and our nervous and energy systems so clarity and self-talk matter
I am never alone because God is always in, with, and around me.
The world is a matrix, lattice, hologram, quantum field -and I have supreme agency in shaping it into a nightmare or masterpiece.
I am strong, resilient, healthy and abundant because God is my Supply
My connection with God is my ultimate medicine that heals every part of my life
LETTING GO of old limiting beliefs, shame, FEAR and self-judgement is awesome.
I am a beloved child of God. (not a label, not too much, not too little, just right ;-)
GOD rocks and saves, protects, and nourishes my life and YOURS every single day - THANK YOU GOD!
I will continue to grow, shine, and make mistakes every day and I will be in the ring ;-) even with discomfort because that is where the work and growth is done.
Now I am focusing on staying even more connected each moment to God and keeping my mind, body, and soul ultra-positive, high-vibes and forward focused on my mission which is to B LOVE every day and use my God-given talents and skills to build 11x LOVE, write my books, rock my podcast, speak and DJ at special events, and build the 1111 PEACE Park Project before I die (not for many more decades).
BREAKTHROUGHS ✅
So I want to share a little celebration of breakthroughs and progress this year ( I will share more specifics in 11x LOVE LaB “LaB = Lessons and Blessings”) .
Great progress working the trauma peaks and “Doors” doing hypnotherapy💜
Healing Mommy guilt and shame
Healing 2 breakups
Healing 4 different sexual abuse experiences at 4,10, 14, 28
Healing suicide attempts at 14 and 46
Healing big relapse 5 years ago and shame
Healing Internal Family Systems parts and the overprotector and rebel Val
Healing remnant divorce issues
Healing shame and neglect from Mom and Dad
Healing energy pyramid work with “mind mosquitoes” and anxiety (very cool technique)
Some “doors” had to be visited a couple of times but they are clear now. Yay.
Some were handled with Ibogaine 5 years ago and needed a tune up.
I did 4 psilocybin journeys (it’s legal in CO- 2 with a little extra something which I will not say here ) and 1 other entheogen micro-journey, 3 were good 2 were ultra dark. Cleared some demons for sure. Big time.
Once the repairs are done and the furniture is moved like my hypno practitioner says - now is time to enjoy the new furniture arrangement of freedom from old wounds and do building and maintenance.
Just like with a physical injury or car damage, the goal is to get in, do deep repair work on it, then get back to driving, building the future, and moving forward.
Staying in rehab, physical therapy or the body shop is not the goal.
Same for trauma work.
I know trauma can come in waves over time with certain triggers however I feel complete in the door work and going backward at least for now. I am moving forward with God by my side.
What has truly truly truly helped seal the deal in my healing this year is deepening my spiritual practice and reframing my self-talk and all day dialogue with God which I’ll explain a little later below.
ACHIEVEMENTS and WINS in 2024 🏆
Proud Mother of a college student!
Proud Mother of a boxer!
Recorded 46 Podcast episodes with badass Guests all over the world
Hosted 35 Guest Panel- Virtual Bitcoin for Creatives Summit
Hosted 5 Guest Panel - Virtual Bitcoin for Podcasters Summit- Adam Curry - yay!
Hosted 6 Guest Panel Bitcoin for Families Summit
DJ: Madeira Portugal, Denver, Costa Rica, Nashville -World’s biggest Bitcoin Conference
Speaking: Costa Rica, Madeira, Austin, Nashville, - World’s biggest Bitcoin Conference
Organized and led PEACE Park Meditation - Madeira
Did and Refined 11x LOVE Code Masterclass - next cohort starts Jan 11th
30% done with SNAP Goes the Mommy Book
Raised 578,000 Sats and 100 books for Toys for Tots
Grew my email list 21%
Grew social following 142% over double
Researching P2P lending marketplace for home equity/Bitcoin
5 interviews on other people’s podcasts
2 event consulting clients - yay!
1 11x LOVE coaching client in the works - many more next year! yay!
Learned how to set up BTCPayserver for Value for Value offerings
Broke up with guy who wasn’t right for me
Broke up with new guy very early because he was a big drinker
Got my kids each a car -yay!
Painted the decks and railing by myself
Saw my Mom twice - yay love!
DJ’d at my ex’s and his girlfriend’s Bday parties - family fun!
Got invited as a +1 to Saylor’s NY Eve 100k party!
Already booked 3 DJ/Speaking gigs next year
Made initial landing page for 1111 PEACE Park Project
Launched Bitcoin for PEACE Project - gathering story submissions - yay!
Made 4 new deep friends for life
Started monthly Bitcoin for Women meetup 2nd Tuesdays, at Space Denver
Manifesting Mission-Driven Divinely Aligned Mr. Bitcoin Burrito-Man baby!
Yay Victories!
ADJUSTMENTS to BIG CHANGES ☮️
My kiddos growing up into young adults, partial empty nest, and healing old family trauma.
As a Mom (and Dad), every time our babies go through a new developmental milestone, I too must grow and change as a new Mother (Father), and each child is unique so there is no playbook on how to parent “correctly”.
It is 1 big petri dish experiment! 😂
Mom got diagnosed with lung cancer and by the grace of God it has not progressed - YAY!
Sister-in-Law also had to deal with new cancer but is all clear - YAY!
The family lost my ex-brother-in-law - RIP
BIG SURPRISE BLESSING 🙏🔥🩷
Got my ass kicked (in a good way) with trauma work with myself and a family member which will be a work in progress.
In addition, I got my ass kicked even more being exposed to all the toxic energy around the elections everywhere , and as a highly sensitive person, I didn’t practice enough daily energy hygiene and got velcro’d into the icky collective vibes of fear, anger, and frustration.
So, as a blessing in disguise I was forced to deal with and heal my own shame, rejection, sexual trauma and abandonment wounds. My dear friend Andres from Colombia who I told what was happening with one relationship in particular, and he said “Val, I went through a difficult time similar to this - now everything is better than ever”
Yay. That gave me some comfort.
The next thing he said was to read or listen to “The Game of Life” by Florence Scovel-Shinn.
MASSIVE gamechanger breakthrough.
It is a book written in 1925 and quotes the Bible and talks about looking at life as a game to be played rather than a war to be won and my WHOLE perspective shifted and my nervous system completely calmed down and has been ever since. Big BLESSING.
Someone very special in my life became a Christian a while back and after my initial resistance because of my past trauma with religion, it prompted me to dive deeper so I could learn and connect with this person on a different level.
If it weren’t for this person, I never would have got a Bible, the Bible App, and The Game of Life book would not have resonated with me because of old trauma around religion that I had and I would have rejected it if it was a year ago. (because of all the scripture references)
As you may know, I meditate and pray and chant every single day and have a protective grid around me of special guides, guardians, angels, and God. Because of this healing with this special person, I now also have Jesus in the center of my grid and we work specifically on the feelings of peace, presence and patience.
TOOLS ⚒️
Apps
DBT Coach App - great exercises - like distress tolerance and mindfulness - when I pause and combine these with prayer and Neville Goddard and Florence Shinn- good stuff
Reveri App - great for daily 3-10 minute self-hypnosis/anxiety/sleep/fear/future - I really love the 2 screen way he does things- SUPER positive for future visioning
GooD Inside - great for parenting tips, self-care, being gentle on myself, rupture and repair scripts and techniques
The Bible App - staying connected to daily quotes and some plans for self-love as single Mom, breakups, faith, dancing with change
Daily Spotify and YouTube with
Manifest with Neville Goddard - imagination as superpower -visualization practices - connection with God - feeling of the wish fulfilled - who must I BE to manifest my desire
Florence Scovel-Shinn - words as wands - life is a game - mindset - resistance and flow
Near Death channels - WHOA so cool for spiritual curiosity & afterlife-God loves all of us
Completed These Audio Books in 2024
Courage to Be Disliked - Ichiro Kishimi
The Coaching Habit - Bungay Stanier
How to Love - Thich Nhat Hanh
The Game of Life - Florence Scovel Shinn
Feel Good Productivity - Ali Abdaal
Habits of a Peacemaker - Steven T. Collis
All About Love - Bell Hooks
Renegade Millionaire - Dan Kennedy
$100 Million Offers - Alex Hormozi
$100 Million Leads - Alex Hormozi
Trauma - Paul Conti
Love Life - Matthew Hussey
Bringers of the Dawn - Barbara Marciniak
Letting Go - Dr. David Hawkings
The Starfish and the Spider - Ori Brafman
The Hidden Cost of Money - Seb Bunney
The EXTRAORDINARY: between drugged and f***ked- Tanja Bachle
Million Dollar Weekend - Noah Kagan
Apex Environmental Solutions - Bryan Solstin
The Creative Act - Rick Rubin
Courage is Calling - Ryan Holiday
Sacred Economics - Charles Eisenstein
Still working on:
Broken Money - Lyn Alden
Grunch of Giants - Buckminster Fuller
One Nation Under Blackmail - Whitney Webb
The Creature from Jekyll Island- G. Edward Griffin
Daily Practices
Water with lemon and coffee with coconut oil, collagen and probiotics, iron, B complex
90 morning minutes, Daily 11x LOVE Power Practice, meditate, journal, chant, pray, affirmations, visualizations, stretching /yoga/dancing, breathing
5 minutes at sunrise - eyes in sunshine - bouncing for mitochondria energy
Many times a day Vibe Check - rate my vibe and if it’s low how to lift it- gratitude and blessings everywhere - redirect “What Would LOVE Do?”
5 V’s in Journal: Vibe-Vision-Value-Villain-Victory (from the 11x LOVE Method)
5-5-5 Method = 5 Affirmations - 5x Each - 5x a Day (from the 11x LOVE Method Tripod)
Top 3 Get To’s today
All Day Affirmations with EMOTION (in shower, car, waiting, mirror work, brushing teeth, etc:)
My body, mind and soul are perfectly safe, happy, healthy, pure, sexy, rested and energized
I do blessed work for blessed pay, I help people feel God’s LOVE every day
All my relationships are divinely aligned, happy, healthy, harmonious and supported by God’s LOVE
Mr. Bitcoin Burrito-Man and I LOVE, cherish, support, and bring out the BEST in each other as we light the world on fire with our Divine Life Missions to help make the world way better than we found it with the power of our Sacred LOVE.
You’re doing great Val- keep going
Everything works out in my favor because God is my Supply
Rejections are God’s Redirection
How is this situation a Lesson and Blessing?
What would this feel like if it were a game?
What would this feel like if it were a film production?
How would I feel if I were just an observer and not attached?
God smiles when I smile
God is my Co-Founder and wants the BEST for me and US.
What Would LOVE Do in this situation?
Rise Above and Act With LOVE
BELIEVE and KNOW
YES. It Is Done
Before Bed Affirmations
Thank you God for this wonderful blessing of a day.
Thank you for my warm safe home and bed
Thank you for my family, friends, health, abundance, joy, home, freedom, mission and Angel puppy
Thank you for______ (any specifics)
Immediately Upon Waking- I get on my knees and pray:
THANK YOU GOD for another day! LFG! Whoohoo!
God, I offer myself to thee to build with me and do with me as thou will. Relieve me of bondage of self so that I may better do thy will. Take away my difficulties so that victory over them may bear witness to those that I help of thy power, thy love and thy way of life. May I do thy will always. Amen
(this is the 3rd step prayer from AA I learned 8 years ago and still say it everyday)
So, if you have made it this far reading - wow - thank you.
I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear from each of you if you care to share what your Lessons and Blessings have been from 2024 -
(I know I can express myself a lot so I don’t expect a long ass letter like this 😂)
I LOVE learning new tips, tricks, skills, books, etc as well as celebrating YOUR victories !! Whoohoo!
Let’s Raise Our Vibes and Thrive in 2025 and
Create the BEST Year Yet!
Thank you again and I wish you so much LOVE and gratitude for being the BEST Bitcoiner Family ever!
Wishing You ALL
PEACE, LOVE, and Warm Aloha ☮️🧡🌈
Love Always and ALL Ways
DJ Valerie B LOVE 💜 The Vibe Goddess
